Comments on: OCD. What!? https://soundsofshutter.com/misophonia/ocd-what.html Blog about Misophonia and photography Thu, 25 Jun 2015 10:50:31 +0000 hourly 1 https://wordpress.org/?v=4.0.38 By: mmaria https://soundsofshutter.com/misophonia/ocd-what.html#comment-149 Tue, 01 Apr 2014 05:52:53 +0000 http://soundsofshutter.com/?p=1098#comment-149 Sheila,
when I read your comment I couldn’t believe. No one, no one so far didn’t understand this and now you’re telling me that you are the same! I’m asking myself what’s next? There must be something else.
In 99% of the cases I don’t have in my mind that something will/wont happen if I do/don’t think or act in a certain way. I just have this book of rules in my head and the need that those rules have to be followed. If I don’t follow those rules I’ll lose my temper and what is worse, I wont enjoy in some activities or what else is going on in that particular moment.
If I’m going to meet with someone and that person is late for 5 minutes, I’ll probably spoil our time spent together. I don’t have the problem with he/she being late for 5 minutes, that could happen to everyone. My problem is that those 5 minutes aren’t planned ahead. And see, I’m capable to be completely rational but not capable to act completely rational.
I’m not like that anymore and of course, because I don’t spend that much time thinking/reacting/calming myself down, I have more time to enjoy.
Certain thing became casual matters for sure and from the core, but certain things aren’t still and don’t know if they’ll ever be. Like choosing the cup f.e. If I’m completely changed in my head I wouldn’t deliberately choose another cup, I would choose any cup without thinking about it. I still think about it and I still order myself to choose another cup.
When it comes to someone being late, I completely and truly don’t react in the way I mentioned above. I’m cured from the core.
So I don’t know what if everything will be fixed from the core in the future, but I do know that there is no way back to that behavior, and that I consider being my biggest success.

]]> By: Sheila https://soundsofshutter.com/misophonia/ocd-what.html#comment-143 Sun, 30 Mar 2014 12:05:49 +0000 http://soundsofshutter.com/?p=1098#comment-143 This is incredible, once again you words could just as well come out of my mouth..

An interesting thing for me is that I don’t even have to really believe that something will or will not happen in a certain way if I do or don’t do something; it’s enough that the thought runs through my mind at that moment for me to choose a certain spoon or cup over another…

Speaking of choosing a spoon, for example, I too, as you, try often to purposefully choose an option that is not the one I am tending toward choosing. And it does have an effect; even though it might never become a situation in which I feel (positively) blind to the possibilities allowing me to be really free, I do have a certain sense of relief (and achievement!) when I realize that I’m totally fine with choosing just any cup or any spoon.

And I think that’s the point of it – when you realize that it really, really doesn’t make a difference at the end of the day, whether you ate this mayonnaise or the other, or which plate you ate it on…

I feel optimistic that it may one day be an absolutely casual matter. Like with you, I’ve overcome many manifestations of this behavior, and I’ve noticed in me a very pleasant feeling of easy-goingness significantly increasing over the years.

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