I found an interesting photography forum and joined in September 2013.
After a while someone posted a thread with the question “Things that grosses you out?” There were all sorts of replies and Leonore replied:
“Hearing people chew. And not just the obvious open-mouth, lip-smacking kind of chewing, either. Even when someone is trying to be quiet, I can still hear it. I find it to be so disturbing that I have to leave the room or put headphones on. Seriously grosses me out. And as it turns out, there’s apparently a reason for this: a neurological disorder called misophonia, which is an intense dislike for soft noises. “
I’ve read it and couldn’t believe! I was in a shock for a while.
I thought that I’m the only one in this whole world who suffers from what has just been described! My heart started to pump fast, I sweated and read those words few times. When I came to my senses I replied:
There is a proper disorder for that?! Oh, you made me sooo happy!! Can’t wait to tell my friends, husband and family!!!
But still I doubt they’ll forgive me…
I also have problem when I’m about to sleep and someone is breathing so I can hear it, not to mention snoring….
So it’s not me it is a neurological disorder! I’m a legitimate freak! Me happy
Thank you so much for giving me this information and I thought I’m the only one in this world! Seriously!”
Then she wrote:
“These are the exact same reactions I had when I found information about this. It had gotten so bad that I thought there HAD to be something wrong with me, especially when everyone else seemed so oblivious to the same exact things that drive me insane…”
And that was my misophonia discovery.
It is difficult to explain what I felt when I found out that I’m not the only one. Somehow the fact that this is a neurogical disorder and has a name itself didn’t struck me as much as the fact that there are other people feeling the same way as I do and that there is someone else who understands!
That I couldn’t process for a few days, I couldn’t even sleep because of the shock…
Actually I’m still processing that information.
The date of naming my problem was 11.19.2013. That’s important just for me, I know