This whole messaging with Leonore is a perfect intro for explaining what misophonia really is. I feel like she’s holding my hand and helping me to write about all this
In one of her messages she described a lunch she had with her co-worker…
“I had lunch with a co-worker and friend today. I managed to distract myself by having a crunchy salad, but then I was finished and she took out a banana. My boyfriend understands this about me but no one else really gets it – even if they are ‘sympathetic’ – so it’s as much of a relief for me that I can say something like, “She took out a banana” and someone else will actually understand how I felt at that moment!”
I know, and I understand that almost anyone who read this wont react anyhow except: “What?I don’t get it?” It’s ok really. It can’t be explained. Just go to some photography related stuff here
I read it and I started to lough out loud! I couldn’t stop. It was my first time to hear about experience similar as mine!
After laughing I started to cry. I realized that it was my first time. It was liberating, real, with tears, wonderful cry. Someone gets me! I was happy!
Do you know how huge this was!?
Probably not… but… imagine that trough your whole life, and every single day you thought that you are an obnoxious, redundant and awful person! I accepted myself as being that kind of person and after all these years I learned that those feelings can’t be fought! But one day, all of the sudden someone comes and say: “Hey, I get it! I really do!”
There are just few experiences in life one remember vividly. Those experiences usually refer to moments of pure happiness when something huge happens. This was one of those moments for me.